Friday, October 2, 2015

Tempted Wife

Actually had a period of close to 2 months without any contact. I have to say, during that time there was not a single day that I did not think about him. When he finally did call, out of the blue, I was overwhelmed with emotion that I just about fell to my knees. He was still feeling the same way as before. So was I. His feelings did not wear off nor did they fade away. Neither did mine. In fact, they somehow grew stronger.

You need to believe me when I say that all this time, Other Guy and I have never even kissed. Sure in my mind I've kissed him a thousand times and made love to him a hundred times more. But in real life, I'm sad to say that I have not. And I'm relieved to a certain extent as well. Relieved because I fear that if a kiss should ever happen, a Pandora's Box will open and I don't think I'd be prepared to deal with that.

When I did finally see Other Guy after our time apart, I wanted to kiss him so badly. En route to meet him, I imagined myself just planting one on him the second I laid eyes on him. But when we were face to face, I chickened out. He asked for a kiss and I said yes. When he leaned in for it, I got paralyzed and kept my mouth practically closed. His lips parted slightly as he was going one way, but I was not following. It wasn't awkward or weird. It was simply understood that that was not going to happen at this time.

Immediately after though, I wished I had the guts to ask Other Guy to do it over. I wanted to redo it so that my mouth could match his. But I didn't ask because even though I wanted to go there, I was afraid to go there. Ever since that attempt, I keep thinking about wanting to redo it. His lips were soft. Much fuller on the mouth than they appear on his face. I want to feel them again. Just one more time. Alas I haven't seen him since that day. We've spoken plenty, but not face to face. Probably a good thing in the long run.

The thing is, if I ever got a chance to redo the kiss - and it is inevitable that at some point, that day will arrive - I'm not sure I'd be brave enough to actually "kiss" kiss him. I'm chicken shit because as I said before, that kiss would be the first step down a slippery slope of getting physical with a man other than my husband. But there's another reason as well, one that I'm slightly embarrassed to admit: I have not kissed another man in over a decade and I am so scared that I can't kiss properly anymore! Not like that anyways. I mean, my husband and I don't even kiss that way anymore! What if I'm a horrible kisser? What if Other Guy thinks I'm a horrible kisser? Is kissing like riding a bicycle? What if I'm so rusty I won't remember?

Can make a confession? When I made love to my husband the first time since falling for Other Guy, I cried afterwards. My dear Husband fell asleep and there I was, bawling because I felt like I had just made love to the wrong guy. It is the first time I have ever felt such a feeling post-sex. Oh sure he's the right husband, the right father, the right so-many-things. But just not the right soul for my soul. I was filled with such a sadness after our lovemaking. It should have been Other Guy, I kept thinking through the tears.

This love that Other Guy and I feel for each other - it predates us. It was there before we were born. I know it because I feel it. Other Guy and I have something that I do not have with my Husband. I wish I had better insight into this, but all I have is a feeling that is guiding me. There is no concrete or tangible proof, otherwise.

Here's the thing. I don't want to trade one guy for another. It would just be bad karma to do so. Bad, bad, bad, bad, bad, all around. I'm not stupid to think you can just upgrade husbands. This is not trading in one model for a newer, shinier version. Because even the shinny version dulls eventually, I understand that. Plus, I like the model I have. It's consistent, reliable, good to me and loves me. Plus, since I've never put my own identity in another man, I can assure you that I'm not looking for a better husband, a better father, a better provider or a better anything. I have found all these things in my own Husband years ago. We have a heart to heart connection, Husband and I. It's deep. It's loving. But it's not a soul to soul connection. That belongs with Other Guy.

I did not ask the Universe to meet Other Guy. I did not give off an "I am available" vibe when Other Guy and I first met. I was just doing my everyday everything when this love crashed down on me like a meteor falling from the sky. I have tried to turn away from it. I have tried to ignore it. It just gets bigger when I do that.

I feel a need, a pull, a duty, a desire to keep exploring this thing with Other Guy because there is some reason for us to have been thrown together like this. If I feel if I abort this mission, so to speak, there will be emotional repercussions for me. But I know if I cheat on my husband, there will also be emotional repercussions. So I'm screwed either way.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Teacher's Wife

Ang galing mo talaga. You topped the exams once more. At this rate you will be graduating at the top of your class”, Professor Gino excitedly exclaimed shaking James Uy’s hands.

“Thanks po , Sir. Magaling ang teacher eh , mana lang ata ako sa iyo”, James gladly acknowledged.

James Uy was the school’s pride. 16 years old , about 5′9″ in height, well-built as an athlete, the basketball team’s starting point guard. A very attractive young man. What made him a rare breed from most athletes was his consistency to top his academics.

It wasn’t a surprise that girls in his school would go gaga over him .

Prof. Gino had been his mentor , his confidante – mathematics teacher and coach of the school’s basketball team.

Dahil sa closeness ng dalawa James Uy was like a member of Prof. Gino’s family. James would dine even sleep at Prof. Gino’s abode often.

Dito nya nakilala ang 15 -year- old daughter ni prof. Gino na si Sai .

Sai was from a different school , an attractive young woman in her own right. Maganda , matalino at hindi maarte as someone you would expect from an accomplished teener.

Natuwa naman si Prof. Gino , lalo na ng malaman niya na naging magsyota na si James at Sai.

Sylvia was Prof. Gino’s wife, already in her early forties, dati rin teacher , but after prof. gino’s prodding , na kumbinse na rin to be a full time housewife. sylvia was like an older version of sai , maganda , matangkad , at kapunapuna ang hubog ng kanyang katawan. MILF of everyone’s wet dreams ika nga.

Minsan after ng practice niyaya ni Prof. Gino si James na doon na magdinner sa bahay nila , tuwang tuwa naman si Sai. alam niya kasi na maluwag and daddy niya kay james , sobra kasi ang tiwala niya dito. may mga panahon na rin na sila lang dalawa ni James ang naiiwan sa bahay , at dahil parehong bata at mapusok , nagawa na rin nila ang magpetting , necking, touching – maliban lang sa aktwal na pagtatalik.

Dun nga nagdinner si James. after the usual table conversations , nagpasya na ang magasawang Prof. Gino at Sylvia na mauna na sa kwarto. Nasanay na rin kasi ang magasawa na iwanan ang nagiisa nilang anak sa sala everytime dadalaw si James.

Nakapangbahay lang si Sai sa panahon na iyon , isang maikling cotton skirt at manipis na sando , di na siya nagbra , alam niya rin kasi kung saan hahantong ang gabing yun..

Pinatay ni Sai ang ilaw sa sala at manonood sila ng DVD ni James. Isang old movie ni Antonio banderas at Angelina Jolie . Kasisimula pa lang ng palabas , naglaplapan na ang magsing-irog.

“Babe , sigurado ka ba na hindi na lalabas si Prof”, tanong ni James na ngayon ay simula ng nag-iinit.

“Wag mong alalahanin yun, di na lalabas yun , halika nga dito …umppphhh”, hinalikan ni Sai si James sa mga labi nito , sabay pasok ng kamay niya sa loob ng basketball shorts nito…shit ka babe , ang tigas na pala nito…” , inilabas niya ang nagpupumiglas na dambuhalang titi ni james na humigit kumulang anim na pulgada ang sukat. Napapigil hininga naman si James sa sarap na nadarama.

Hindi na bago sa magsyota ang eksinang ito , ilang buwan narin nilang ginagawa sa bawat isa ang ganitong bagay, kaya lang lalong naging mapusok ang dalawa sa isat isa habang paulitulit nilang ginagawa ang eksperimentong yun.

Unti unting binaba ni sai ang bibig niya patungo sa ulo ng titi ni James…panay naman ang lamas ni James sa hinog na hinog nang mga suso nito.

Tuloyan ng sinubo ni sai ang ari ni James,parang hihimatayin si James sa sarap sa bawat taas-baba ng bibig ni Sai sa tarugo niya.

“ahhhhh …. sarap mo talaga babe……sige pa … pagpatuloy mo lang…ahhhhh”

Ilang beses na rin nahawakan ni Sai ang batutua ni James, every time it surprised her. Parang palaki ng palaki , lalong humahaba sa paningin niya. Di nya rin maalis sa sarili niya ang isipin na ipasok ang titing yun sa pekpek niya..si James kasi kinukulit siya lagi , na gawin yun. siya lang ang nagpigil ,dahil sa takot niya sa mga parents niya na baka siya ay mabuntis at such a young age.

“sheetttttt! sai , andyan na sasabog na….ahhhhhhh…..” , ilang saglit pa at sumabog sa bibig ni sai ang malapot na semen ng kanyang minamahal.

Di nagsayang ng oras si James , pinaupo niya si sai sa sofa , at dali daling lumuhod sa harapan nito , binaba niya sabaysabay ang skirt at panty ni Sai. kahit medyo madilim na sa sala , kita pa rin niya ang manipis na balahibo ni sai at ang namumulang pek pek nito…pinagapang niya ang mga halik niya galing tuhod hanggang umabot ito sa makinis at mabibilog na hita nito..

“ahhhhhh….ahhhhh……babe….James…..”, biglang nanigas ang katawan ni Sai , habang palapit ng palapit ang mga halik ni James sa pussy niya ….

“Sai , ibuka mo ng kunti…” , at binuka nga ni Sai ang mga paa niya….sentrong sentro sa dila ni James ang malaperlas na kuntil ng kinse anyos na kasintahan.

“ahhhhh….James…….saraaappp niyan….”, ungol ni Sai.

Ilang minuto pa , at ilang beses na rin nag orgasm si sai , bawat isa , patindi ng patindi…

“babe , ahhhhhh….sheeet…….ahhhhh….ohhhhhhh…..di ko na kaya James…shit! andyan na naman ahhhhhhhhhhhhh” , gusto ng awatin ni sai si James , pero sarap na sarap din si James sa pagkain niya sa syota niya kaya , tinagalan niya ng husto ang paglaro at pagdila sa pekpek nito..

Ilang minuto pa bago natapos si James. nagyakapan ang magkasintahan.

Nagpaalam si Sai sandali at pupunta lang ng CR para umihi at maghalf bath, si James naman naiwan sa sofa , hawak ang titgas na tigas pa rin na ari nito , libog na libog pa rin … isang ideya ang pumasok sa kukuti niya….susundan niya si Sai sa banyo…

Bungalow ang bahay nila Prof. Gino , typical sa mga subdivisions , at bago makarating si James sa banyo , madadaanan niya ang kwarto nina Prof. Gino at Sylvia.

At di sa sinasadyang pangyayari , napansin niya na medyo bukas ang pintuan nito…parang may kung anong ispiritu na humihila sa kanya na silipin ang kwarto ng magasawa.

“Shit!” , nabigla siya sa nakita niya…si Sylvia naka panty lang at sando , habang ang isang kamay nito ay nilalaro ang pekpek nya through her panty….nakatalikod si Prof. Gino kay Sylvia at malalim ang tulog…lampshade lang ang ilaw sa kwarto pero kitang kita pa rin niya .

Nakiramdam si James sa paligid , naririnig niya sa banyo na naliligo si Sai … unti unti niyang dinukot ang tigas niyang titi sa shorts niya, at mabilis nya itong sinalsal habang pinapanood niya nanay ng syota niya … at dahil medyo bitin siya sa angle niya sa may pintuan, kaya binuksan nya pa lalo . Narinig niya na lumikha ng ingay ang ginawa niyang yun, at bago pa siya makareact, nagkasalubong ang mga mata niya at ang mga mata ni sylvia…kitang kita ni sylvia ang hawak niyang titi na nakagapos pa sa kamay niya…nanglaki rin ang mga mata ni Sylvia, dahil first time nya makakita ng ganun kalaking titi…

Di makakibo si James , gusto niyang umalis sa kinaroroonan niya sa mga oras na yun , pero di nya magawa…tumayo naman si Sylvia at dahan dahan lumapit sa kanya…lalong nanigas si James…

“James….saan si Sai?”, tanong ni Sylvia kay James.

“Ha? ah…eh….naliligo po sa banyo…”, mahina niyang sagot.

“May panahon pa tayo, may katagalan maligo ang batang yan ”, lumabas si Sylvia sa kwarto at sinara ang pinto.

“James , halikan mo ako “, demand ni Sylvia sa syota ng anak nya , sabay dukot sa titi nito.

Di makapaniwala si James sa mga nangyayari , hinalikan nya ng todo ang nanay ng gf niya…habang ang mga kamay niya ay abala sa paglamas sa malalaking suso nito.

“We don’t have all the time iho , ibaba mo na itong shorts mo….”

Binaba ni James hanggang tuhod ang shorts niya , habang hinubad ni Sylvia ang panty niya..

Isinandal ni james si Sylvia mismo sa pintuan ng bedroom nito …

Itinaas ni James ang isang paa ni Sylvia, at dahan dahan naman pinasok ng titi niya ang puke nito.

“James , ang laki nito ….pasok mo na …..ahhhhhhh” , parang gustong sumigaw ni Sylvia sa kirot at sarap na dulot ng malaking titi ni James….na shocked din sya sa sarili , di nya malaman kung bat siya nagkaroon ng tapang na lapitan si James , at gawin ito..

“ohhhhhhh……ahhhhhhhh……….ahhhhhhhhh …….ang lakiiiii…….James , sheettt…..ahhhhhhh”

Naipasok ni james ng buo ang titi niya sa pekpek ng nanay ng kanyang girlfriend. parang maulol siya sa sarap ….

“Tita , ang sarap moooohhh….ahhhhhh……ummpppphhh ….”, tuloy ang halikan nila, habang labas masok ang titi kay sylvia…”

Ilang saglit pa, narining ni James na pinatay na ni sai ang tubig sa banyo, tanda na tapos na ito sa pagpaligo..

“James , bilisan mooohhh….andyan na akoooo ahhhhhhh……iho sige pa…..ahhhhhhhhhh ……ahhhhh…..jame….ahhhhhh……ohhhhhhhh ….im coming…sheeeet ito na… aahhhhhhh….”

Sabay pareho silang nilabasan , nanginginig pa ang tuhod ni James , pagkatapos….

Nginitian ni Sylvia si James, “Sa susunod gusto kong madilaan yan” sabay pasok ng panty nito sa shorts ng binata , ”remembrance mo yan, sa uulitin”. At pumasok na siya sa kwarto….